Let Us Begin

Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come. We have only today.

God Calling {part one in a series}

on March 26, 2012

I think I may have said things like…

“this is me putting my game face on” & “I’m ready to run”

oh, and I meant it too.

I just didn’t quite expect God to move so quickly. Truth be told, I have been working so hard just to keep up that I have been unable to catch my breath long enough to speak. This has left me at a rare loss for words that can be attested to by the fact that my most recent blog post was back in January. (sorry about that)

I have just had so much to say and no idea where to even begin to say it that I haven’t said anything.  That is about to change.  I am breaking the silence and I have a feeling the floodgates are about to be opened.  Here goes nothing.

I left off saying that I was lacing up my shoes to begin putting one foot in front of the other in the sense that we were ready to formally begin our adoption process…

I picked up the phone and started calling international adoption agencies regarding the waiting child program in China. I knew that Johnny and I didn’t meet the minimum age requirement of 30 years but was hopeful that there may be the possibility of a waiver as I had heard of similar exemptions given for other things such as finances or being over the age limit. I left messages and I prayed and I did my best to put it all in the Lord’s hands.

The morning of Friday, February 10th the responses started rolling in and they were all the same…

“We know this isn’t the answer you were hoping for”, “unfortunately this is not a guideline that can be waived”, “the age minimum is written into Chinese law”, “i wish there was a way that we could help you”, “call us back in three years”…

3 years…

it was as if the wind had been knocked right out of me.

While I knew that it was a possibility of course that we could be told no, I honestly had really expected to get the green light to move forward and didn’t quite know how to respond.

I had been so sure… i still was.

While adoption has always been one of those things that we wanted to do someday (we had even discussed the desire to grow our family through adoption eventually when we were dating), these past nine months had been filled with such a sense of urgency that try though I may, I could not get it out of my head. The sweet little faces and the enormity of the needs of children in our world to have a loving home and a family, how many millions are lost and alone, became pretty much all I could think about and I knew I had to respond. I began reading everything I could get my hands on about adoption, scouring waiting child listings and websites, following blogs, watching youtube videos, listening to webinars, attending orientations, but more than anything praying.

This whole crazy thing, this adoption journey, was never my idea to begin with. It’s been all God…

and then it hit me,

This news was not a surprise to Him. He knew that we both had to be thirty to adopt from China and He didn’t put this sense of urgency on my heart three years from now. He had already moved us to action. He must have a plan and a purpose in this. Maybe I was supposed to start an adoption advocacy ministry at our parish, or should help to raise awareness or work on raising funds for others to adopt? I didn’t know what form it would take exactly but what I did know was that there was absolutely no way that I was going to set this aside for three years and do nothing to serve the needs of the orphan.

I knelt right then and there on my kitchen floor
and I prayed that I would do whatever God wanted me to do
but that I just had to do something.

(i kid you not)

That is when my phone started ringing…




“Yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary”. (Isaiah 40:31)


4 Responses to “God Calling {part one in a series}”

  1. Laurel says:

    oh, good start to the story, but you’re going to leave us in suspense like this!! =)

  2. Deanna says:

    Oh my goodness! Can’t wait to hear what happens next! Miss you.

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